these grass stains on my knees - they don't mean a thing

i chronicled,

the days you made me want to live

memorized the way that it felt and then i

turned it into this kiss

tonight i'm wearing my best smile,

and hope to make me worth your while,

i'll be the best mistake you'll ever make

Jamison Parker

Friday, April 14, 2006

as always, after a good korean drama,

it leaves you feeling empty and dissolute.

it leaves you pondering.

some may think it's bimbo talk but it really makes you question

is love -- REALLY like that?

will i meet someone who will pander to my every need?

if i call, will he come running?

why does her situation seem so much like mine?

why doesn't he do something?

will i be like her -- old and mateless and grasping, grabbing desperately

at a man whose heart no longer belongs to me?

i believe these are very real and substantial questions.

maybe not now, but someday you'll be asking yourself that.

i don't know why i've suddenly become so concerned with

matters of the heart, but i do believe it's the sense of urgency

and anxiety that propels you along, when you see the sudden influx

of all the people around you holding hands and your good friends staying

back in school just to wait for the one person.

it's sweet, really, sometimes you just wish you had something to commit to.

at others, you don't need no pants ;)

i promise that the next time i blog,

it won't be about L.O.V.E

OR AT LEAST,

i will try :)

that's right - pin me up, love